Come back

No, I did not dissapear from earth. It's just been ehctic at work. The past weekend I went to paternoster...got 3rd degree burn wounds...thanks to sitting in the sun and drinking. Had sun burn on Saturday night, I had a terrible fever and could not even drink my white wine...but all better now! As soon as Dirk has downloaded the photos of the past weekend, I will publish some. Most of them are censored, but I'll see what I can do.

Worrk is driving me mad these days, but hey, nothing I can't handle right? My love life seems to be going in the right direction, but don't want to be to optimistic or even talk about it, scared I will jinx it!

Anyway, back to work, and will give feedback on the Paternoster weekend as soon as I have the pics!

Me

Just for fun!

Date

Here's a quick pic - not the best, of Dirk my date and I

Brother and Sister

I LOVE my brother!

Dancing

Here my brother and I are dancing and Chrisma and my dad!

Family ties

Here I am with my cousin Riaan and his wife Debbie in front of the Church...nice view isn't it?

The wedding car

Here my dad (Stemmet) and I are posing at the wedding car

The wedding party

Heres a pic of the Wedding Party...doesn't Chrisma just look beautiful? I think my brother is a VERY lucky man!

Wedding

My brother Paul and I before the wedding!!!

So like I mentioned before, it was my brothers wedding this past Saterday and it was beautiful. It looked like something out of a storybook. I struggle to find the right words to describe the day.

The wedding was at this small church on a deserted beach, the party was held at Geelbek, in a tent. Chrisma loked liked a princess and off course I cried off all may make up during the wedding. I still can't believe my brother is a married man. To him and Christma I wish them the best of luck

Some photos of the wedding to follow!

I believe

Someone send this to me today......made me think about my situation....don't I deserve everything mentioned underneath?

I believe in love at first sight.
I believe in soul mates.
I believe in happy endings.
I believe in sacrifice.
I believe the hero might die for his Love and she'll pine for the rest of her days.
I believe the hero can give up his heroine for her hapiness, knowing full well she will share herself with another. And he dies a little every day.
I believe in winks, glances and knowing smiles across a crowded room.
I believe in passion. And lust. And true love.
I believe in seeing her in my dreams.
I believe in playing strip poker... just me and her... and losing.
I believe in her friends being my friends and thier friends being ours.
I believe in watching her sleeping and listening to her breathing and feeling more full because I can.
I believe in wiping away her tears and fighting back her demons just because she is who she is.
I believe that love and sex are not the same thing but sex can define love.
I believe that given time, I could wish on every star for her happiness and given time, every star would answer.
I believe that I may well be an idiot for all this but she would never think so.

Wedding Quickie

Here's a photo of me at my brothers wedding...yes, it was later in the evening. But the only photo I have for now...

Will write later about the wedding.

Online Dating

Now what to do regarding the following: See, my ex and I are still living together, and if it was up to me, I would have wanted him not to be my ex. yes, I do call him a doos, ass and Vokker and a lot of other things.

Now he started visiting an online dating site. What should I make of this? He said it's because he's not ready to settle down and has this itch that needs to be scratched. The urge to see other people. In the beginning when we started dating, I also wasn't 100% sure about him. I know I want to be with him, but am to scared to make the move, to give myself 100% to him.

I've been hurt and dissapointed so many times by guys, it's a wander I'm not a lesbian yet!!! Ok, so I'm also guilty of visiting the online dating sites. But here's the thing, I felt and still feel rejected by him, and I wonder what I did wrong..... SO it's nice to see that there is other men actually really interested in me. But it's difficult for me to take that step to meet up with them for drinks, I sttill feel like I'm cheating on Dirk.

Why must one love someone who can not feel the same about you? This is the strange thing. I'm actually a strong person with a strong will and many of my friends tell me to leave this guy, move on and get on with my life. What they don't undersand is that I really care about this guy deeply. Every time I see he's on the site it feels like the knife is being turned just a bit more in my heart. Wht can't he give me the same aatention? Don't I also deserve someone who loves me, who cares for me, who will do anything for me? Life's a bitch I guess and then youm die.

Om te groet

Seker nie die regte manier om die Maandag te begin nie, maar hier gat dit. Was toe die naweek by Broeder lief se troue, dit was wonderlike - ek was al seker by 4 troues hierdie jaar - maar hierdie een vat die koek! Maar dis 'n storie op sy eie....

Die mense wat my goed ken sal weet ek is BAIE eerg oor my diere. Sondagoggend 2h00 se kant kom ons by die huis, en dis 'n ding wat ek nooit sal vergeet nie, le my bokser, Bella onder my kar, ek dag eers sy slaap en Dirk spring uit om haar wakker te maak, toe ons besef sy is oorlede.Dit was nie haar tyd nie, sy was nog vol lewe. Ons weet nie wat gebeur het nie, Dirk moes my letterlik van haar afgehaal het soos ek gehuil het, en ek huil nog steeds.

Bella was 'n hond duisend en sy het soveel liefde gehad om altyd te gee. Ek weet baie mense wat daar kom kuier het, was seker soms geirriteerd met die feit dat sy die hele huis vol was, maar sy was ons kind, deel van die gesin.Ek sit nou en dink aan hoe sy gelyk het as mens met haar teen die strand gaan stap het, of haar die bosse ingevat eht vir 'n lekker stap. Hoe sy soos 'n besetene rond gehardloop het en maller as 'n bok was.

Ek dink aan die aan waar ek bo in die sitkamer gestaan het en eerstens 'n bok in die straat verby sien hardloop het met Bella en my kat agter die bok aan. Ek dink aan die aande wat ons partytjies gehou het toe ons nog in Stellenryk gebly het en Bella geweier het om te gaan slaap voor die laaste persoon weg is. Waar sy saam om die tafel gesit het as daar drinking games gespeel is.

Ek wil haar nog een keer 'n drukkie gee, nog een keer optel, nog een keer meen speel. Ek wil nog eenkeer haar om die huis hoor hardloop as ons nog slaap en sy's wakker. Die oggende wat ek in die huis in kom na 'n laat partytjie en Bella wat vir my wag. Bella wat soggens haar nat neus in my gesig kom druk het om wakker te word.Bella en Ronel wat skelm saam geslaap het....

Bella Bok, ek gaan jou mis, en mens vra nog steeds hoekom is die lewe so onregverdig? Dit was nie jou tyd nie, dis nie regverdig nie....

Wanneer is genoeg genoeg?

Ok, so I have decided I live in ons strange life...and circumstances. I'm living with my ex at this momenst - he's moving out end of November. I would like to say we are great friends, I think we are, but there are some ups and downs.

For example his ex. Well, an ex is called an ex for a purpose - it did not work out so get over it. I 'm also guilty for contacting a certain ex from mine once a mont etc. but we chat about what's going on in his life and my life. I never start crying or throwing tantrums that I want him back. Well see, my problem is, this guy that's living with me now...sort of my ex...his ex phones at least once a day, if not more. She mails and she sends text messages (Can I add at this stage that she does have a boyfriend) and apparently she'ts trying to get my ex back. Now this has been going on apparently for almost 3 years. Then she's with her boyfriend, then she's with my ex! I say love the one your with and move on.

Ehats happening now? I don't trust my ex at all. Even though he says he will never go back to her, he cant stand her etc, byt when she phones, he's quick tp phone back andquicker to 'defend her honour'. This started wile my ex and I were still dating.

How much can one person take? How long can I handle this feeling I have? I have work stress, a CCMA hearing agains my old employer next week finincail worries and to top everything of, I have a girl that won't leave my ex alone, because while she is still in his life,I cant actually see how I can be friends with him, or even try to see if the relationship will someday work.

Ek het genoeg gehad. Genoeg is genoeg. Ek se dit elke dag vir myself as ek by die werk sit, maar kom ek by die huis, ek en hy gaan gym en ons kom weer goed oor die weg, is alles ok vir 'n tyd. Maar sodra sy weer kotak maak, is dit asof ek die huis met 'n ander persoon deel. Hoekom straf mens mens so? Is dit net omdat ek bang is dat ek eendag alleen gaan wees?

Ek soek iemand wat lief is vir my, vir wie ek is. Wat my soos 'n prinses hanteer en my lief het.....Sal mens ooit so iets vind?

Manstydskrifte

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Die volgende gaan my verstand te bowe; meisies met issues oor manstydskrifte en hier moet ek vir die man op kom. Ek self is ‘n ywerige FHM leser, en as ek moet kies tussen ‘n Cosmopolitan en ‘n FHM dan wen die FHM loshande.

Die van julle wat al wel die FHM deur geblaai het sal weet dit is nie net alles oor meisies in onderklere nie, maar daar is ook paar briljante artikels in, wat meer van toepassing is as enige artikel wat ek al gelees het in enige vrouetydskrif. Soos bv hierdie maand se FHM bevat ‘n artikel waar ‘n FHM joernalis saam met die flying squad van Joburg ‘n aand saam spandeer het en ook ‘n interresante artikel oor Central Park van New York. Verder die resepte en idees wat jy in die FHM kry is meer realisties as die Cosmo, Marie Claire of enige ander vrouetydskrif s’n wat in die selfde klas as die FHM val.

Nee, dis nie verniet promosie wat ek doen vir die FHM nie. Wat my ontstel is meisies wat nie toelaat dat hulle ouens dit mag lees nie, want ‘hulle is bang vir die idees’ wat dit in die ou se kop gaan sit. Ja mense, ek het actually gisteraand met so ‘n meisie gepraat, wat erken dat sy haar ou nie toelaat om sulke tydskrifte soos die FHM te lees nie, want sy is bang dit ‘prikkel’ hom en ‘gee hom idees’. Maar my redenasie is dan, dan mag die ou seker ook nie televisie kyk nie en word verbied van enige strand af waar daar mooi meisies met bikinis rond loop? Hoe kan mens met sulke oogklappe deur die lewe gaan en iemand verbied om ‘n sekere tydskrif te lees, net omdat jy bang is wat in hul gedagtes aangaan?

Maar dis nie net sy wat so redeneer nie. Daar was ‘n ou ook deel van die gesprek en hy het self gesê dat hy nie sulke tydskrifte lees nie, eerstens weet hy nie hoe sy meisie sal reageer nie en tweedens…wag, is daar ooit ‘n tweedens of is hy net bang vir sy meisie?

Ek koop die FHM en so ook my flatmate Dirk, en ek en hy kan ‘n hele aand spandeer deur die FHM te lees, oor die artikels te gesels, lag vir die grappe daar in en selfs idees kry vir ‘n resep of 2.

Imagine hoe die meisies sal reageer as hulle ouens vir hulle sê hulle mag nie die Cosmo, Marie Claire, Glamour ens. lees nie, want hulle is bang vir die idees wat die meisies gaan kry as hulle die sexy ouens in die tydskrif gaan sien. Is ons meisies net meer insecure dat ons nie wil hê ouens moet kyk na fotos van sexy girls in onderklere nie of is die meisies bang dat hulle ouens hulle gaan los vir so ‘n meisie?

Kom ons wees realisties met mekaar, en dit is nie net suurdruiwe nie, ek self was in die industrie, en al wat ek kan sê is PHOTOSHOP! Kyk maters, meeste van julle weet hoe ek lyk, maar ek kan vir julle fotos wys waar ek ‘n lyf het soos ‘n Swim Illustrated Model en hare soos ‘n Pantene model. Alles word gephotoshop, van kop tot tone. Ek sê natuurlik nie al die meisies in die tydskrifte weeg 90kg, het geen hare en het selluliet nie. Die realiteit is net, dat omtrent geen van daardie meisies so perfek lyk in die tydskrifte soos wat hulle daar is nie, so hoekom issues hê as jou ou die FHM wil deur blaai en hom dreig dat jy gaan uitmaak?

Spinning

Ok, so I started gym about a month ago and had my 3rd spinning class last night. For the first time I could actually keep up with the class, without feeling like I want to vomit or faint, or both. Maybe it was because I had a good distraction in the class that fascinated me for most of the class.

Our usual intructor wasn' t there so a woman took over for him. I have never seen such a big ass on a woman, especially on a suposedly spinning instructor that gives two classes in a row. Who of you ever saw the movie Flabber? Well tha't what her ass reminded me off. As she peddled all I could see in the mirror was her ass. Actually, I think she blocked the whole mirror that only 1/2 of the classs was visible in the mirror. It was REALLY big - still in shock...

Wedding Blues

Ok, my brother's wedding is comming up this Saturday. Can't believe my boetie is getting married! I will have to gym extra hard and eat way less now to fit into my dress for Saturday - plus fake tan here I come. I thought by this time I would have had some colour or would have had some time to visit a sunbed....but NO...this is officially the whitests I've ever been. Chris, nie eens in Londen was ek so wit soos ek nou is nie! Ek mis daardie Spaanse vakanasies en die lekker goudbruin wat mens daar word.

Anyway, back to the wedding. So Dirk and I are driving up to Langebaan on Friday, for the BIG wedding Saturday. We practised a bit of dancing this weekend, and I figured it out, I can only dance whith him when I'm a bit tipsy! So problem solved...I'll stock up on the champagne before hand!

So anyway, Broeder Paul trou Saterdag. Dit voel nog nie so nie. Plus die mannetjie wys mons nie altyd as hy nervous is nie!! We'll see on Saturday! I'll take pics! And those of you who always wanted to see hoe boerseun Dirk looks in a suit.....I'll make sure there's a nice pic!

Favourite Sites

Hi all, I thought I'll give you an update of some of the sites I like to visit on a regular basis:

http://www.willeklong.co.za
http://www.skopbeen.co.za
http://www.litnet.co.za
http://www.mk89.co.za
http://www.news24.com

Hmmm... I think that's it for new. Willeklong is all about live in South Africa and young South Africans enjoying the good times in South Africa. Going to festivals, shows or even just a pub or 2. Most of the article is in Afrikaans, but here and there you can find some English article son the site.

Then off course is the Skopbeen site. If your bored during the day and would like to chat to some extremely interresting people then visit Skopbeen. You can always expect something new on there.

In the beginning

First, why did I start this blog? Well, this is to document my thoughts. I always have something to say, or something on my mind and this will be the best place probably to do it...I hope and I think!

First who and what am I? OK, I'm in my late 20's and live in the Northern Suburbs of Cape Town and work in the Boland District. My passion is anything and everything Afrikaans and you will also see my name on the Willeklong web site a lot. http://www.willeklong.co.za.

Enough for now. This was just a short intro. Later I will write some more. First have to figure out how to upload images and if it's at all possible! Wait, think I figured it out!
Ok, so this is how I look, so you can put a face to all the thoughtless thoughts here!