Enough is enough

Have you ever had one of these days where you just had enough? Well I had a day like that yesterday….and it is continuing. It just feels like your whole life is on this rollercoaster ride, you want to get off, but the only way to do this is to jump. Take a leap and get injured in the process…..

On Friday our accountant just walked out at work. So moral is low here at work. I’m extremely happy here. I’m working together with the world best colleagues probably, but the mother company is giving us all hell….I’m even close to saying enough is enough and just take my stuff, leave and work as a waitress. But I’m not a quitter…am I?

I worked the whole weekend long; in other words, I had to baby-sit the mall on Saturday and Sunday. On Saturday I had one of the best night I had in a long time, unfortunately it was cut short due to the fact that Dirk can not behave and do not know when to sop. Thus, at 19h30 Henry had to put a very drunk Dirk in my car and I had to take him home. And that was just a few hours spending with my friends. Realised on Saturday I miss them…A LOT. It seems these days I’m spending more time with Dirk’s friends. I miss my friends, I miss spending time with them, sharing jokes and knowing what is going on in each others lives.

Sunday I worked again and upon returning home Dirk said he’s going to the beach with his friends, leaving me alone at home, and believe me…I WAS TIRED, body screamed for some rest. But I can not handle Sunday’s. Sundays is one of my most depressing days of the week. I need com company, I can not be left alone on Sundays…as I REALLLY tend to get very depressed and yes suicidal ideas does pop in to my head sometimes!

But hey…luckily I have a brother and sister in law that loves me for who I am, so I popped in at their house on Sunday. Had a nice braai with them and some of their friends and watched their wedding photos on a slide show…when will it be my turn someday?

Now it’s Monday and I just received news that one of my colleagues based in Joburg died this morning……why is life so harsh? All I’m asking is life…give me a break….please! I had a terrible 2006 and hope that 2007 has better things in store for me than 2006!