Online Dating

Now what to do regarding the following: See, my ex and I are still living together, and if it was up to me, I would have wanted him not to be my ex. yes, I do call him a doos, ass and Vokker and a lot of other things.

Now he started visiting an online dating site. What should I make of this? He said it's because he's not ready to settle down and has this itch that needs to be scratched. The urge to see other people. In the beginning when we started dating, I also wasn't 100% sure about him. I know I want to be with him, but am to scared to make the move, to give myself 100% to him.

I've been hurt and dissapointed so many times by guys, it's a wander I'm not a lesbian yet!!! Ok, so I'm also guilty of visiting the online dating sites. But here's the thing, I felt and still feel rejected by him, and I wonder what I did wrong..... SO it's nice to see that there is other men actually really interested in me. But it's difficult for me to take that step to meet up with them for drinks, I sttill feel like I'm cheating on Dirk.

Why must one love someone who can not feel the same about you? This is the strange thing. I'm actually a strong person with a strong will and many of my friends tell me to leave this guy, move on and get on with my life. What they don't undersand is that I really care about this guy deeply. Every time I see he's on the site it feels like the knife is being turned just a bit more in my heart. Wht can't he give me the same aatention? Don't I also deserve someone who loves me, who cares for me, who will do anything for me? Life's a bitch I guess and then youm die.